Amateurish

Note: ATOZ Challenge

Theme: "Finding Myself - Living My Life"

Caution: Free Write

Amateurish

So now what would you call a 20 something who wants to improve her writing by writing about herself throughout April? A learner? A student?

Even after completing my education and a stint with job for some period of time, I will say I haven’t learnt much( read anything) about life. I am an adult who is still trying to figure out what is going on around, taking my own time, and deciding how to live my life. “Lost Soul”, you may think I am. But No! I would have lived my  life like everybody else. Get up in the morning, go to office, work for odd hours, return home, routine etc. But now that I have time in hand, I wish to know more about myself and figure out roads unexplored. To be specific, the road left unexplored for me to walk on. What is that something different that I wish to seek? Well, I am still learning.

I am quiet; doesn’t mean my brain is silent. There is continuous music and dancing of thoughts that goes on like forever. It keeps me awake at night, doesn’t allow me to sleep. It makes me depressed with events going around, but cheers me up at the next moment at the sight of my favorite person. It loses its way and saddens, and then brightens up again when it knows it has to achieve goals which will make people wonder, “Man, I knew this person would do wonders and defy everyone. This person was destined to do that”. Am I boasting about myself? Not at all. Just noting down my amateurish ideas in a free write. I love to write down my thoughts, and what better platform than this challenge where I want my readers watch me seek my goals of life.

Fly like a bird without a care in the world. How will I do that? Let me learn it along the way in 26 days. 26 Days of my Self Discovery with you people as witnesses!!

I wish to be Amateur at heart. That way, thirst to learn more won’t stop, and will let me explore more paths. But the path I seek, is yet to be found, and find it, I will.

Am I doing something wrong by going against the norms and society rules? Are my amateurish ways of learning something that I like bad? Is doing something that makes you happy and content wrong? Why do I care? After few years, I do not want to complain that I missed doing this and missed doing that.

I will let my ways and ideas flow. Do not stop me. At the same time, do not abandon me! Free spirited that I am, let me be “Me”. Hold me in case I fall.

What is that “Amateurish” skill that I wish to master? I am seeking :)